#GIF MACHINE GUN CRACKED#

You slowly turned over into your back and your puffy, bloodshot and red rimmed eyes met his cerulean colored ones. “Look at me,” he demanded but his tone was pleading and not harsh. He slowly pulled back and sat up on the bed, his hand slowly slipping from your grasp and making it cold once again. He let you cry it out for as long as it took until you finally stilled in his arms once more. His own eyes teared up and he squeezed them shut as he held you tighter while you shook in his arms. I just want to d-disappear,” you were sobbing by the time you’d gotten the words out.Ĭolson felt his own heart break at the broken tone in your voice. “Everything hurts but feels absolutely numb at the same time. “I don’t want to feel anymore,” your voice was hoarse from not speaking for three days. You swallowed thickly and tried again, saying the only thing you could think of. Your bottom lip quivered as you opened your mouth and tried to speak. He said it so quietly you wouldn’t have heard him if his mouth wasn’t basically pressed against the back of your head. “Talk to me,” Colson whispered in to your hair. You wrapped your much smaller hand around his large fingers and held on tightly. You let out a shaky breath and slowly brought your hand up to his that rested on your stomach. He held you so close you could feel his heart beating against your back as he nuzzled his nose into your hair. So when you felt his warm tattooed arm wrap around your waist and pull you close, the waterfall of tears started all over again. You were his best friend and he loved you as much as he loved Casie. But when it came to you that all changed. He wasn’t a cuddler and he rarely got sentimental. You didn’t move or say a word, not even flinching when his hand reached out and brushed your matted hair away from your pale face.Ĭolson wasn’t an affectionate person. He let out a small breath and slowly climbed onto the bed beside you. Your blanket was pulled up around your waist as you laid on your side facing the wall. It gave the room a dull orange glow.Ĭolson stood beside your bed staring at your tank top covered back. The door shut slowly and you could feel their presence move across the room then your lamp switched on. You saw the sliver of light appear on the wall when the door opened, a show appearing on the wall as whoever stood in the doorway. His hand lingered over the doorknob as he debated wether or not to go in. He walked down the hallway and stopped outside your door. He climbed the steps, his feet feeling more and more like bricks every time he took a step. Without answering, Colson walked away from the kitchen and to the staircase.

#GIF MACHINE GUN CRACKED#

He rubbed his eyes roughly and his voice cracked as he asked, “What do we do?” He was on the verge of tears at the thought of his best friend hurting so bad she was letting her body slowly break down. Slim squeezed his eyes shut as he listened. Rook took her some water yesterday and she didn’t touch it,” he told him. He knew you wanted your space but it was becoming hard to when he feared you were going to do something stupid.ĭre shook his head in response and rubbed his forehead. He had been in the studio most of the time, writing and record their fourth album. “Has she left her room?” Colson questioned as he kept his eyes on the granite in front of him. Rook, Dub and Dre sat at the bar stools on the other side of the counter that Colson stood at. Slim stood against the opposite counter with his arms crossed over his chest. Colson stood in the kitchen, bracing the weight of his body with his hands against the counter. The pill bottles in your medicine cabinet were starting to call your name, whispering to you in the dark in the middle of the night.ĭownstairs, there was a meeting going on. The whiskey didn’t even take the pain away anymore so you let it overcome you. Your sister, whom you hadn’t spoken to in six years, called you and told you your mother had passed away the next day. Your boyfriend of three years had left you for another woman that he’d been sleeping with for almost a year three days ago. A glass of water sat untouched on the nightstand that someone had brought in but you didn’t know who. You had been in bed for two days already, going on three. An overwhelming numb feeling had spread through your whole body and chilled you to the core. it also mentions suicidal thoughts so you’ve been warnedĪll you felt was emptiness. A/N: this little short (not really, it’s actually quite long) shows a very very very soft kells.

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